Chapter 3 - Life after

Salam to all

Chapter 3 - Life after....mcm nk buat buku plak kan... cewaahhh... tinggi harapan but u all know me la. Belajar takat sekolah tinggi mana pandai nk karang buku. Baca buku pun malas. Ni lagi la nk tulis buku. Tak menarik wooo... Nk karang kat sini pun crack pala otak. But just to let it out, i story mory je la 2 u all. Mana tau jadi bahan reading. Me nk membaca buku tp masa tak berkesempatan la. Dah baca skit. Tajuk La Tahzan - Jangan Bersedih.... buku motivasi. Best gak. Tu baru baca skit.

Ok la bebel panjang plak. Life after ayahanda passed away...emmm...me just move on. Sedih, rindu, sunyi dll semua ada la. Seminggu dua tu siblings ada la dtg. Pastu takde la. Well...masing2 ada masalah masing2. So me n kids move on.

Seminggu arwah duk dlm amp puteri, me amik cuti. Tak keje. Bos kata tak pe la. Take as many as u need. Then after he passed away, me amik lagi seminggu duk kg. Arwah me bwk balik kebumi kat kg mama. Senang kalu me balik kg and if raya semua sedara mara bleh visit. Well honestly me tak tau la kalu decision me ni betul ke tak but mek tak kisah, mak cik noh pun ok wit it....then i think ok wit everybody.

After back to KL me amik another one week cuti, just to clear his things. Me went 2 c my big boss. She gv me a big hug. She really a nice person. Very understanding. Happy working with her since 2002. Me went around to Socso, EPF, Banks and PNB to settle his things wh i can claim or not. Things done smoothly. Socso, settled in few days. EPF, not yet, will take time at least a year. Bank CIMB, leceh tul, byk borang. PNB for ASB, at least dia kasi cash RM200 for faedah kematian on the day i went there. The balance will be sent to me soon.. Alhamdulillah!!!!!!!

So at the end i went to Amanahraya. The steps they really explain until i understand. Hope to get the money?...At least 6mth to 1 yr but me heard that most cases takes abt 2-3 yrs baru dpt semua tu. Mmmm...ok la. 1st things 1st.

Me had to go back to work. Dh lama sgt tak keje. Lgpun byk benda asyik kena tunggu je, so pegi keje je la. Lgpun sunyi la kat umah. Lagi bangkit kan rindu kat arwah. Me really miss u my dear hubby.

Mula2 me keje, tak leh concentrate. Really keep thinking abt him. Camne nk buat. Kat tgn tasbih all the time. Cam warak la plak me tp itu la penguat me dgn Allah. Ya Allah! Bagi la aku kekuatan untuk menempuh kehidupan ini bersama anak2 ku...


Colleagues especially saleha, cik tipah & ah soon try really hard to entertain me. Bos keep asking ' r u ok?' Well at this point, my colleagues really taking care of me. Makan....makan la tp now in small portion. Not like last time. Now tak nk masuk sgt kat tekak ni. Makan tetap kena makan. Me have to live for the sake of my girls. Well...ada +ve n -ve la abt my life now. But mcm arwah ajar la, dont think too much, dont think abt wat peeps will say, always think +vely. Errmmm...tats wat i m been doin la guys.

Balik awal2 pas keje, amik anak2, balik umah, sedih arr...Anak2 dh biasa, sampai kat depan umah bg salam panggil abah!abah! buka pintu. Sapa tak rasa sedih! Tahan airmata beb.

Apa2 pun life goes on, bersyukur dgn apa yg ada. To all arwah's friends dr office or kelab pingpong, millions thx for the donations. It helps me a lot. Ye la kan dgn kenduri every day for the 1st week after he passed away and then once a week after until a mth. So byk gak pakai. Itu kat kampung mama. Kat sini pun me buat gak kat surau, kat umah. Ramai dtg. Alhamdulillah..

To all, doakan me tabah utk hadapi dunia KL bersama anak2 tercinta LJ, K & T. Amin!